I moved homes last week. For almost 20 years I had lived in the same place. For almost 20 years, through the accumulation stages of life, I had done just that. Accumulated a tremendous amount of 'stuff' that at the time my 20 and 30 year old selves had deemed hugely valuable to me.
My 40 year old self however, the one with a little more life experience, the one that has awakened in the presence of loss, grieving and deep pain, she stepped in to manage emotions. No more 'stuff' she firmly told the younger versions of myself that seem to linger around from time to time. Then the 40 year old self, she promptly ordered a mid sized waste bin that was quickly delivered, filled and replaced with yet a second one.
And as the 20 and 30 year old versions of myself sulkingly watched from a second floor window while my life partner took those once deemed worldly possessions and placed them either at the side of the road or into the waste bin, a feeling of lightness began to enter in. It was almost magical. The more 'stuff' that was surrendered the more space opened up within me and it was almost everything I could do to stop my 40 year old self from saying to the younger versions 'see I told you so'......
This wasn't new to me - this idea that the outer and inner can reflect each other. How often when our outside world is messy it is merely a reflection of what might be going on inside and vice versa. It's something my 40 year old self brought to my awareness some time ago and yet I love the gentle reminders that are provided to us by a higher power as a means to show us how far we've come or perhaps how far we still have yet to go.
I'm settled into my new space now and it's clutter free and if my 40 year old self has any say it will stay that way......and most of the time she wins.
Tammy Price
Certified Medical Intuitive